wah... omg... i dunno wad to say... friends or God... why am i always caught in the middle... always... im so sick of it... why cant i have both at the same time... furthermore... ive been putting God on the top priorities... but still im left stuck in between two dumb walls... i cant take the burden... sometimes im really dumb frustrated... not being able to be there... to be anywhere... why cant i do something easy... never did anything easy... wad does God want from me... and why me... always me... i dun wanna be marginalized yet im being put heavily to the test... for months now... i cant stand it... why why why... always pain and suffering never joy and fulfillment... it is always not fair... well... i guess its because its not fair... haix... why am i born the way i am... filled with bad omen and bullshit... always struggling to make it there... and when i do... nothing turns out right still... as if everything remained the same... why me... i don't like this dumb pressure... its always like that... cannot stand the torture... i pray for strength but i am still weak... i pray for faith but i get peer pressure... i pray for freedom but i get sorrow.... i hardly felt good about something... im always put to the test... God... why me... u know that im not strong or wadeva but u always choose me... i dun wan this... i cant make it... i just wish for a peaceful and joyful life... just give me a chance..................
