Hey,
I've got lots of things to say to you... But i dunno where to begin... This entry might sound a lil tough for you but i hope you'd understand...
well, lately, ive been thinkin bout us alot... and wads goin to happen after this... i mean i know you are willing to wait for me... so am i... but im not sure how close we will be when i return... im not sure if you could accept the new me... or that's if ive changed... i mean.. i sure did change... and i know it... its not that ive changed for the worst but my interests have changed alot... i dunno whether you feel awkward around me...
also, ive heard lotsa stuff from my friends... i mean... a lot of stuff about you... and im sure concern for you... they tell me things which are good and bad... and of course they say things... i dunno whether i should believe them but they have been my friends for 3-4 years... these people are not the people u think they are... but i know them for ages and they keep telling me to forget you... but sometimes i just cant...
after these 2 months of thinking and all... i guess we should end our lil fantasy... its not like it wasnt great... but its just that its difficult for you and i... i hope you will understand and the immense moments that i went thru during this period... its not like we cant be friends but its just that that is as far as we can go for now... i know how you would feel after reading this but please dont...
as tough as it is for you to read this... i feel the burden typin this out... and im really sorry that ive failed to keep my side of the promise but for now, i just need to lay back a lil... i also hope that you know that its for your own good... that i wan you to focus on ur studies and not divert your attention to me...
i'm sorry im not the one for you...
from your loved
